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a late goodbye

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I doubt anyone cared or noticed but I'm done with this account.
I honestly just hate drawing ponies and for the most part that's what my watchers on here want to see I have a new account that's not too hard to find, I didn't cover up my tracks to well. Just note me if you want it ig. I'm honestly not even posting a lot there. I've been very depressed lately about everything in my life, mainly my excruciating lack of friends at school. something about watching people constantly validates each other while fucking nobody acts like they give a shit that I exist really, really fucking hurts honestly. All I've wanted my entire life is to be liked by people. I'm a people pleaser at heart. I am absolutely thrilled to make other people happy but it's impossible to do that when nobody cares about your existence. This is one of the main reasons I started a youtube channel in the first place. I just wanted to make people happy with my art, but I never got any attention for the art I poured my heart into. I know this probably sounds like I'm just an attention whore who only cares about attention, but that's not it at all. I simply just can't appreciate something I create by myself I know it's stupid but it's a mindset that I can't change. I'm the definition of someone who thinks that the number of likes I have is equivalent to my value as a human being. I know how fucking stupid that sounds and I hate myself that I can't get out of that mindset. The only fame I've ever tasted has been leached off of others, such as A-Studio and others. It hurts my self esteem because I think back to the summer when I was good friends with Studio and I remember feeling that I had gotten pretty popular but my stupid fucking brain has to ruin everything and remind me that I was never as good as Studio and people only talked to me because I was close to her. After she disappeared off the face of the earth nobody talked to me anymore. I don't want to seem like I'm undermining the people who have supported me. The people who have commissioned me told me that they are a fan, told me I'm an inspiration, watched me, favorited my posts even, any of that. You have my unconditional love forever. I Just want to start completely fresh, and that's the reason for my new account. I just want a clean slate.  I'm trying to find the motivation to create things on there but since I have like 4 watchers it makes me feel that there is no point to create something nobody cares about. Maybe I'll just end up crawling back to this account and finding a new source to leach from. I don't know what I'm going to do. I doubt anyone read all of this bs, but if you did, thank you. 
See ya'll on the flip side :)
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H e n l o
it's been a long time lol
I want some cash cash money so
ye
I'll do a full body of any furry/ human / animal oc (even ponies cus im a sell out) .
for $6 or 600 points (though a widget)
It will be shaded and detailed and I will pour a lot of energy into it so please
A detailed background is +400 points (or $4)
if you have money to spare I would be honored to get a commission. 


guten abend freunde~
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if anyone has a pokemon character (like an actual pokemon, not just a trainer) put em in the description and I might draw them
or if you just want me to draw a pokemon, feel free to just comment it ^^

EDIT: even though this is closed I might still draw some of these at some point idk tho :)
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If you are tagged in this, you are mentioned in a question on here! I do not tag people to do these kinda things!!!

also, I bolded the questions ones that mention people who are tagged ^^






1. Are you single?

nope

2. Date girls or boys?

I date SethAquauis >:3
 
oof i'm cringy

4. How old are you?

14

5. Adidas or Nike?

I wear Fila's lol
I'm not sporty, I stay in my cave drawing for 24 hours every day (except for school lol)

6. Why did you and your ex break up?

I'm just gonna say my most recent ex,, I broke up with them because I was in love with someone else, and I felt very bad for dragging them along when I really didn't love them as much they deserved. Also, I'm not very attracted to girls, to be honest

7. What’s the most traumatic thing that’s happened to you?

I have never had anything super traumatic, but if I had to say something, probably heartbreak

8. Do you have any siblings? 

sister

9. How tall are you? 

5' 9"

10. Do you smoke?
no, I NEVER will.

11. Ever been to a festival?
there's something kinda like a festival near where I live once a year

12. What’s your favourite food?
pasta

13. Favorite pair of shoes?
shoes are gross

14. Would you ever be in a long distance relationship?
JACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
bitch ass living 2000 miles away

16. Have you had a threesome?
NoOOooO

17. If someone paid you to delete your tumblr how much would you insist it be?

I don't have one

18. What was your last lie?

I dont know

19. Best compliment you have ever received?
everything jack has ever said to me

20. What is your greatest strength or weakness?

strength: *dabs*
weakness: if I filled this out it would surpass the word limit of DeviantArt

21. What is your perfect pizza? 
cheese

22. What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
How I was happy it's summer

23. Do you get along with your family?
my family is cool

24. Ugly and live forever or attractive and die in a year?
attractive owo

25. What cheers you up?
jack B) and my cat + some friends and family

26. Weed or Alcohol?
no

27. What turns you on?
J  a ck

28. How many relationships have you been in?
5 (if you count me and jack)

29. How many people have you slept with?

when I say "slept with" I literally mean "slept with" like the same bed, not sex.
2 I think? two of my close female friends several years ago when I was a kid

30. How many followers do you have? 
idk, alot of you aren't active, but thats okay!! the ones of you who are, are the most amazing people I know, thank you :)

31. Who is your favourite rapper?
i dont listen to rap tbh

32. Who’s your favorite artist on dA?

aliensphynx (im so sorry for tagging you, I hope I didn't make you mad ^^;  )
gosh, their art is just so amazing ;;;
Their perspectives are always perfect on every piece, and they make everything so three dimensional, I honestly can't get enough of their art. they make everything look so real, with the way the skin looks like it has texture, as well as the fur and such. I hope someday I can draw like them, my god ;v;

33. If you had to fuck a celebrity who would you fuck?
n o

34. If someone paid you 1million would you fuck Lindsey Lohan’s dad? 
n o

35. Kendall Jenner or Kylie Jenner?
N  O
36. What’s the weirdest thing that’s ever happened to you?
I rarely leave my house the weirdest thing that happens to me is when my cat throws up

37. What’s the funniest thing that’s ever happened to you? 
I don't know of all time, but recently when my friend put dots on her face and painted her face completely black and her dad yelled at her

38. Do you have a job?
"I get paid on deviant art"

39. On a scale of 1 to 10 how much does tumblr rule your life?
I don't use Tumblr

40. If you could sell your soul what would you want in return? 
I wouldn't sell it

42. Would you ever shave your head? 
if I had cancer

43. Would you rather sniff coke or MDMA? 
no

44. Instagram or Facebook?
insta cus memes

45. Last person that text you?
jack or my mom idk

46. What’s the worst thing you’ve ever done?
Stalked someone

47. Ever cheated on a partner?
no


49. If you had to choose one way to die what would it be?
dying painlessly in my sleep at a very old age

Pum'v bungick tollibiow te io
50. Do you have a crush?

jack
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